To My No One
The night is no longer young
and neither was I
The night is dark
and so are my eyes
The night is missing you
and so am I
The lone wind carves mountains
and so do my hands
in your absence
The stars shine on forgotten lakes
and I get forgotten too
The silence eats my heart like an apple
over and over again
never reaching a core
Time slips like glass
but I break my heart
The rose keeps blossoming
yet I’ve lost my will
Dreams don’t visit anymore
and maybe that’s fair, like my dad
You’re not in them
you are never there
I am not, either
The night forgets its moon
and so can I
The night is still
and so am I
The dawn begins to whisper
I listen. I try
To my no one
this is my goodbye
like the goodbye of a country
that exists in time
but no longer in geography
So if you ever look at me again
remember to pause
The way you did
before pronouncing my name
The way you sighed
into my neck and throughout my skin
Pause
at all the places
you made yourself forget
Pause
Force yourself to forget me
Surprise
I am your night
and you are mine
To my no one
I never really left
Nor did you
We are hiding
in the same house
